Friday, February 01, 2008
shit why must i be so forgetful?!
shit shit shit
was glad that things from yesterday weren't as bad as i thought
but today, i screwed up again
i must really suck...
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it's not only you who is unhappy right now, i am feeling the same, no, its not the same, its even worse
i realize my mistake and i'm definitely to be blamed
but with every line, i feel even more and more useless
yes, a simply matter and yet i messed it up
clearly shows how responsible i was today
and it isn't as if i do not know that i have yet to apologize, but i don't find it that easy to say it even when it is just one simple word
sounds kinda funny but yeah, it is true
it is always hard for me to apologize to you
and after all these, it is not like you'll see this
so what's the point of me typing all these actually? its just like talking to a wall
this blog seems to be turning into a place where i am just expressing my unhappiness for the past couple of days, most probably making no sense to you at all
but this is one of the methods that helps me in a way
why do i seem to be having such a hard time under this little bit of pressure?
self encouragement doesn't seem to be enough...
flash, snap, take
10:59 PM